A SAD DAY IN MY LIFE

TODAY IS NOT A GOOD DAY FOR ME. TODAY IS THE 20TH ANNIVERSARY OF THE DAY I LOST SOMEONE VERY DEAR TO ME. MY ONE AND ONLY TRUE LOVE. KELLY. HE WAS TAKEN FROM ME BY A DRUNK DRIVER. WE HAD BEEN TOGETHER FOR 2 AND A HALF YEARS. TO US WE HAD THE PERFECT RELATIONSHIP. OUR RELATIONSHIP WAS BASED ON TRUST RESPECT COMPANIONSHIP AND LOVE. WE MET IN A DRUG TREATMENT CENTER. WHEN WE GOT OUT WE DATED FOR ALMOST A YEAR BEFORE WE DECIDED THAT WE WANTED TO BE A PART OF EACH OTHERS LIVES. WE EVEN WENT THROUGH A LITTLE CEREMONY OF OUR OWN AND GAVE EACH OTHER RINGS . TO THIS DAY I STILL WEAR HIS RING. IT IS THE ONLY POSSESION I HAVE LEFT, AND I CHERRISH IT AS MUCH AS I DID THE DAY HE GAVE IT TO ME HE LOVE ANIMALS AND NATURE. HE HAD A KIND HEART AND WOULD GIVE YOU THE WORLD IF HE COULD. HIS FAVORITE FOOD WAS MEXICAN. HIS FAVORITE MUSIC WAS THE DANCE MUSIC OF THE 80S. AND BOY DID HE LOVE TO DANCE. TINA TURNER WAS HIS FAVORITE SINGER. HE WAS AN OUTDOORS PERSON LIKE ME. HE LOVED TO GO CAMPING AND FISHING. WE WOULD GO UP TO TAHOE AND GO CAMPING, TAKE LONG HIKES ON SOME OF THE TRAILS UP THERE. LAKE TAHOE WAS ONE OF HIS FAVORITE PLACES TO GO. THAT IS WHERE HE WANTED TO HAVE HIS ASHES SCATTERED BUT HIS PARENTS TOOK HIM BACK TO ARIZONA AND BURIED HIM. THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND OUR RELATIONSHIP AND DID NOT ACCEPT IT. I MISS HIM SO VERY MUCH AND THINK ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME BUT ON THIS DAY I MISS HIM THE MOST. I HONESTLY BELIEVE HAD HE HAVE NOT GOTTEN KILLED WE WOULD STILL BE TOGETHER. SOME TIMES I HAVE DREAMS OF HIM AND EVEN THOUGH IT HAS BEEN 20 YEARS NOW I SEE HIS FACE AS IF IT WERE JUST YESTERDAY. HIS SMILE HIS LONG WAVY BLONDE HAIR HIS DEEP BLUE EYES AND SO SO MUCH MORE. I KNOW HE IS IN HEAVEN LOOKING DOWN ON ME AND SMILING. FOR A LONG TIME I JUST WISHED I WOULD DIE AND GO TO HEAVEN JUST SO THAT I COULD BE WITH HIM. I DON'T WISH THAT ANYMORE. FOR A LONG TIME I FELT SO ALONE EVEN WHEN I HAD OTHER PEOPLE AROUND ME. BUT NOT TODAY I HAVE A FAMILY THAT LOVES ME AND ACCEPTS ME AND LETS ME BE THE MAN I AM TODAY, AND FOR THAT I AM TRUELY BLESSED. I LOVE YOU KELLY AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH.